Archive for March, 2007

Another Random Survey

 Thanks to BookMama for this! :)

 

1. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR KITCHEN PLATES? White. Plain old white. Also? They’re square.

2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? A Mom After God’s Own Heart – Elizabeth George. If you are a christian mom, pick this up. It is REALLY encouraging.

3. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? It’s just a black circle from Ikea. I’m boring like that.

4. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? Scotland Yard

5. LEAST FAVORITE SMELL(S)? garbage? I can’t think of anything. OH. Rotting strawberries and sour milk.

6. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF IN THE MORNING? Lately it’s been “why am I awake already?” I’ve been going to be earlier than normal, so I’ve been waking up at about 5, as though my body is saying “Ok!! You’ve slept your routine amount of sleep! Wake up!” and I wake up wide awake and frustrated because I don’t want to wake up yet!!

7. FAVORITE COLOR: Pink or blue.

8. LEAST FAVORITE COLOR: yellow

9. HOW MANY RINGS UNTIL YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? depends on how fast I can get there!! I’ll answer after one if I’m there!

10. FUTURE CHILD’S NAME? NOYBW (none of your beeswax. YES, that is what we will name him/her)

11. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? twist. Only McD’s doesn’t make them anymore. Broke. My. Heart.

12. DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? not around the city, too crazy. But on the highway? I have a bit of a leadfoot. ;)

13. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? if you would consider MyKidsDad stuffed. :D

14. DO YOU LIKE THUNDERSTORMS? Sometimes. They’re kind of cool in this house because we overlook the river valley, so the lightning comes quite close. We had some really cool storms last summer.

15. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? It was a 1983 (same age as me! Hah!) Toyota Celica. It was a racey little car, stick shift. I LOVED it. Only, about 4 months after buying it, the timing belt broke while I was driving about 70kms/hr, and it was written off. I paid 1000$ for it, most of that inheritance money from my Nana. I cried for DAYS after it broke. And? Guess who found it for me?!?! MYKIDSDAD!! (I’ll probably never let him forget it, even though he has technically bought me 3 cars since!!!!)

16. WHAT IS THE MEANING OF LIFE? My purpose is to serve Christ as best I can, that’s why God put me here. I don’t really strive for a meaning of life, because this life is not what’s most important, what’s most important is eternity. So, I guess, eternity is the meaning of life.

17. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? I don’t think so…

18. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB WHAT WOULD IT BE? My Kids’ Mom.

19. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY COLOR HAIR WHAT WOULD IT BE? Streaked dark brown with blonde in it. But, alas, my wish has not been granted. At least not appropriately.

20. IS THE GLASS HALF FULL OR HALF EMPTY? Depends on when you’re asking. I can be a downer from time to time.

21. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE? I have LOTS. The last movie I saw that I really liked was The Illusionist. (I think? I have a terrible memory)

22. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? Yep. I’m fast too.

23. WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED? DUST. A lot of it. We don’t have carpet in our bedrooms, so it’s amazing how fast you notice it when there’s no carpet!

24. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 3 or 9.

25. FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? Hockey, sometimes football, always soccer.

26. YOUR SINGLE BIGGEST INTENSE PAIN? Probably labor. Even with having an epidural. (as in, before I got the epidural)

27. KETCHUP OR MUSTARD? mustard.

28. HAMBURGER OR HOT DOG? Cheeseburger.

29. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? Summer, I can’t WAIT!!

30. THE BEST PLACE(S) YOU HAVE EVER BEEN? Sooke, BC at our vacation house.

31. WHAT SCREEN SAVER IS ON YOUR COMPUTER RIGHT NOW? My son’s class picture32.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FAST FOOD? McDonald’s cheesburger and fries

33. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE RESTAURANT? Outback Steakhouse (but we never go) 

34. FAVORITE THING TO SHOP FOR? Scrapbooking/sewing supplies, kids’ clothes (when I have time and $$ – and preferably no kids)

35. ANY WORDS OF ADVICE? Ask yourself the question, “In 20 years, will I think “I wish I had spent more time at work” or “I wish I had spent more time with my family”? And fix it before it’s too late.

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A Bad Hair Day!

I’ve been waiting for over 2 weeks now to get my hair done. I had big visions of getting streaks (foils – blonde) like I did a few summers ago, and it was FABULOUS. I wanted to keep lots of the dark in my hair, but still pull out lots of blonde too! I also wanted to get it cut a bit shorter, so that I can just straight iron it in the morning and have it look like I’ve actually done something to my hair for the day. My hairdresser has cancelled twice because her/her family was sick, and so yesterday was the big day.

I left my house at about 9:45am. She lives out of town, it takes me about 45 minutes to get there. (you may think that’s crazy, but it’s worth it because she does it out of her house and it’s WAY cheaper than going to a salon! And she’s *usually* pretty good!) I tried going a different route, rather than through the city, just straight to the highway, but I took the wrong turn. I didn’t end up at her house until about 10:50. I did stop for cash on the way, so that added about 10 minutes to my trip.

Well, we did the foils and the cut. And, the foils only worked on my roots and my bangs, so she had to go back in and re-do the ends to make them lighter. I think this caused all of my hair to end up lighter, because it’s really hard to catch just the same strands as you did before. She cut it about where I told her too, although my hair shrinks a lot (she always ends up cutting my bangs to short because my hair shrinks when it dries), so it ended up maybe 1/2 inch shorter than I would have liked. But the cut itself stinks. It’s all choppy and weird. I’m wondering if either she was really distracted, or if her scissors are getting dull or something. It’s bad. And the dye job? Is kind of orange. I told her blonde with a hint of strawberry – you know, I didn’t want it platinum or anything. And, it’s orange. I’m REALLY disappointed. And I don’t know what to do. There’s way more blonde in it than I would like, and I think its’ hard to focus on liking the color when you don’t like the cut either, it’s almost like the bad cut makes the color look worse or something.

Now, I just don’t know what to do! Do I wait and see if I get used to it, maybe it’s not so bad after all? Do I phone my hairdresser and tell her I don’t like it and get her to fix it the way I want? Do I try somewhere else and see if they can fix it for a nominal fee?? I’d rather not go pay 100$ to have it fixed somewhere, and I know that my hairdresser will do it for cheap. And this is the first time she’s ever messed up in this way, usually it’s just my bangs that I’m not crazy about (they end up shorter). Which, I can handle. But this time I was like WOAH! Well, I’m done talking about it now, this is only making me more upset! I think I will go and medicate myself with some Dance Dance now!! (P.S. It worked last time!)

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(If I did this right, you should be able to click them and see the bigger picture.)

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A bad day

I need a vacation. Over the last week or so, we’ve had mostly sunny days, and most daily temperatures in the “above freezing” category, which has been delightful. So why must I still complain about the one day that it decides to be overcast and ugly out? I love spring, I love that it is getting warmer. But I’m just not a fan of the dirty-ness of it. My SIL and I did some spring yard cleaning yesterday, and it was wonderful to be out in the fresh air, and to rake up all those leftover leaves and find partially green grass underneath. I had this big plan of taking a picture of my backyard in its current pitiful state, but, alas, my husband took the camera to work today.

I need a vacation. Lil’ Miss has had a runny nose for over a week now, and just yesterday it went from being routinely runny to being yellow. Not her nose, silly, the snot. Which means some sort of infection, which means I have to take her to the doctor and get her some medicine. Oh, the joy. Needless to say, she’s whiny and cranky and clingy because she’s not feeling her best. And while I don’t blame her, it only serves to make me whiny and cranky too. You’d think I’d have a little more compassion and enjoy these clingy moments, but today is just not one of those days. The Boy has been extra whiny and cranky today too. I think it’s because he’s overtired for the last 2 weeks. We’ve been pretty busy, and he’s been doing a lot of playing with his cousin. Yesterday when his cousin came over, he didn’t even want to play with him, he just wanted to sit and look at his books. So to have both of them (my kids, that is) crying and whining at me at once, causes me to have a bit of a breakdown. Everyone! Please be quiet!! Lil’ Miss is sleeping now, and I’m kind of considering turning on the electronic babysitter and having a nap of my own.

I need a vacation. I have accomplished nothing today. We gave away the TV we had in our bedroom last week, and since then I’ve been doing really good at going to bed earlier. In fact, the last 2 nights I have been asleep before 10:30. Considering it used to be more like 11:30 or as late as 1am. It’s been really great. I’ve been waking up around 7, just naturally, and wide awake. Usually when I wake up I’m groggy for the first bit, and I have a hard time keeping my eyes open. I also got motivated to try to make myself a schedule, in order to help myself get things done. I started out this morning semi-tired, and only accomplished the first few things on my list. At least they were the most important things on the list (feeding the kids breakfast, bible reading to them, and dressing them). But since then I’ve done nothing that I was “supposed” to according to my list. I need to make the choice to get things done, and not allow the weather to control my moods. I need to be in control more. I went out on a limb this morning and decided to make cookies. Apparantly my brain is fried today, because I literally and 100% forgot about them, until I smelt the smoke. And then when I opened the oven, only to be overtaken by smoke, I pulled them out to find them burnt to a crisp. I was so looking forward to them, having a nice warm cookie to set my mood a little higher (yes, I know, medicating myself with food, great) and I thought “of course!”. I should know better than to bake when I’m having a bad day! I always burn stuff on a bad day! And again, I thought I’d take a picture of my failed memory in the form of burnt cookies and post it here for your viewing pleasure, but the camera is out in “the bush” with MyKidsDad, hard at work. ARG. Darn him for trying to make a living so that I can sit at home and burn cookies!! :P

Well, maybe I’ll go play some Dance Dance, and that will kick in some endorphins and I will get out of my funk. When food fails you, there’s always exersize. Work off all of that raw cookie dough I ate in mourning of the cookies I burnt. (I didn’t try again with the left over dough, too afraid of doubling my misfortune, and only serving to make me grumpier) Yes, I think that is what I’ll do. Then, maybe, just maybe, I’ll consider the laundry.

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My hand veins are portruding.

I just got back from my first spring run. Now that soccer is finished, I figure I better start watching what I eat, and keep on running, or I’m going to start gaining weight in a hurry. I was feeling slightly over confident, and my run started off with a bang. I finished listening to one whole song on my iPod before the asthma kicked in. Arg. So, the second half of the 7 minute run was power walking. And now my hand veins are portruding. And I’m still having trouble getting air. Actually, my asthma wasn’t even this bad during the soccer season as it is right now. Weird, huh? Must be the fresh air refineries across the river. I feel great though, honest. I actually really like running, I find it peaceful and a great time to myself to think. I have always wanted to do one of those fundraising runs, y’know, _____ run for _____ charity, you raise money, etc. I think it would be fun, and rewarding. Maybe one day!

This weekend has been incredibly busy for us. We’ve hosted 2 lunches, and went out to 2 dinners. We could be going to another one right now, but I think it’s to our better judgement to stay home. You can only do so much in one weekend!

My rabbit scratched his head open. I don’t really know what do to about it. He’s an outdoor rabbit, never comes inside or anything, but he’s been in a cage under a heat lamp all winter, and I’m afraid his nails are too long, and thus scratched himself raw in one spot. It doesn’t seem like a recurring nervous habit or anything, just an accident. But his fur and skin are kind of clumpy and hard in that spot, and I’m afraid it’s going to become infected. Also, he’s losing weight. Which scares me a little, but part of me thinks it’s just because it’s getting warmer out, so he’s losing all his fluffy hair, and maybe a bit of extra keep-him-warm fat. (That’s a technical term, you know) I’m not sure if I should try to bring him inside and clean his head off and get a better look, or if I should just let him heal. I’m afraid I’d stress him out too much by bringing him in and wrapping him in a towel and holding him down and all that – he’s not used to that kind of handling. More of a pet on the head now and then. Also, I’m thinking I should cut his nails, but again, I don’t want to give him a heartattack (or be scratched open myself) in the process. sigh. I just really don’t know what to do!!

I found a new game on MSN games on Friday, and I’ve pretty much dedicated what little spare time I had this weekend to playing it. It’s called Carrie the Caregiver, and it’s very similar to Diner Dash, only you’re taking care of babies instead. I find those games so incredibly addicting, it’s horrible!!

HEY! Have I mentioned that I got the new Dance Dance yet?? I forget, well anyways, if I didn’t mention it, I did get it!! It’s so much fun, and the dance pad that it came with is SOO much better than the old dance pad I had. I love it!! It has a workout mode – where you sign in with your gaming profile, and it estimates your calories burned and keeps a chart for you of what days you played and how many calories you burned on that day!! And the great part is, it tracks it for you no matter what game mode you’re playing! Also, you can play online, but so far, the two times I’ve checked there have only been pro’s playing online, with their crazy fast feet! That’s nuts to me that people can play that so much that they can memorize the dance patterns and go at hyper speed like that!!

I got an alphabet set for my QuicKutz die cutting hand tool off of eBay recently, and it came in the mail on Friday! I am so excited to use it! Only the particular set that I got is called Pheobe, and the letters are quite small, so it will be a little finicky to glue down and what not, but it looks great anyways!! I’m looking forward to putting it into action, but I’ve got so many other projects on the go…I have a problem with starting new projects without finishing the old ones.

Oh! Also! There’s a sewing trade fair coming to town in a few weekends! I’m very excited about that!! My MIL and I are going to go, and maybe my SIL if she’s still here. It will be lots of quilting shops and demonstrations/classes and there’s usually some scrapbooking stuff there too! It was where I got my first motivation to begin quilting. I got the fabric for this quilt (my first ever!) when I went to this show a few years ago…

snow girls quilt

It’s just a bit bigger than a twin size, and the whole thing is flannel! It’s very warm and comfy! Perfect for when MyKidsDad is away for a night or two for work! (in fact, he’s curled up with it right now on the couch! Maybe I’ll find some fabric to make him his own flannel quilt!) The best part is that the “snowgirls” as I call them are all glammed up with fancy scarfs and vests, and are holding signs saying “shop till you drop” and are holding little purses and stuff. It’s a very girly quilt! And it’s colorful, and all the colors blend! It’s just my favorite EVER! hahaha… I just love bright colors, and matching colors with different patterns – stripes with dots and patterns and solids. Hopefully I’ll be inspired again! I can’t wait! :D Anyone else wanna come?

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Vaccination for HPV

Has anyone heard about the USA legislating mandatory immunizations for HPV for all girls entering public school in certain states? I find this completely outrageous. I would write a whole blog about it, but someone else already said everything I would like to say about it!

Read it here.

GO. READ.

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What if?

I just downloaded the new Nichole Nordeman CD, called Recollection. It’s basically a “best” type album, with all her hits and best songs. A great starter CD for those interested in listening to her! Anyways, one of her latest songs that was on her last album called Brave, is called What if? and it always struck a chord with me. Well, actually, I have a great appreciation/respect for her song writing, she writes some incredible stuff. I’ll post some more of her songs throughout the next few weeks as I listen to the new album…but for now, here’s Nichole Nordeman’s What if?.

What if you’re right?
And he was just another nice guy
What if you’re right?
What if it’s true?
They say the cross will only make a fool of you
And what if it’s true?

What if he takes his palace in history
With all the prophets and the kings
Who taught us love and came in peace
But then the story ends
What then?

(Chours)
But what if you’re wrong?
What if there’s more?
What if there’s hope you never dreamed of hoping for?
What if you jump?
And just close your eyes?
What if the arms that catch you, catch you by surprise?
What if He’s more than enough?
What if it’s love?

What if you dig, What if you dig
Way down deeper than your simple-minded friends
What if you dig?
What if you find
A thousand more unanswered questions inside
That’s all you find

What if you pick apart the logic
And begin to poke the holes
What if the crown of thorns is no more
Then folklore that must be told and retold

(Chours)

You’ve been running as fast as you can
You’ve been looking for a place you can land so long
But what if you’re wrong?

What if you jump?
And just close your eyes?
What if the arms that catch you, catch you by surprise?
What if He’s more than enough?
What if it’s love?

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I apparantly don’t get out much. Or in, I guess in this case.

This list came from BookMama  and I wanted to see how many I’d read.

Take the list below, paste it into your own blog, and mark them as follows:
READ for those you’ve read;
WANT TO next to those you are interested in;
AGAIN & AGAIN next to those you’ve read and loved, over and over;
REPEAT for those you’ve read more than once, without necessarily loving them;
MEH for stuff you read and weren’t impressed by;
STARTED for those that just never got finished;
and leave blank those you don’t care to read. 

1. The Da Vinci Code (Dan Brown)

2. Pride and Prejudice (Jane Austen) Want to
3. To Kill A Mockingbird (Harper Lee) Read
4. Gone With The Wind (Margaret Mitchell)
5. The Lord of the Rings: Return of the King (Tolkien)
6. The Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring (Tolkien)
7. The Lord of the Rings: Two Towers (Tolkien)
8. Anne of Green Gables (L.M. Montgomery) Want to
9. Outlander (Diana Gabaldon)
10. A Fine Balance (Rohinton Mistry)
11. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Rowling)
12. Angels and Demons (Dan Brown)
13. Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (Rowling)
14. A Prayer for Owen Meany (John Irving)
15. Memoirs of a Geisha (Arthur Golden) Want to read
16. Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone (Rowling)
17. Fall on Your Knees (Ann-Marie MacDonald)
18. The Stand (Stephen King)
19. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (Rowling)
20. Jane Eyre (Charlotte Bronte)Want to

21. The Hobbit (Tolkien) Started
22. The Catcher in the Rye (J.D. Salinger) Want to
23. Little Women (Louisa May Alcott)Want to
24. The Lovely Bones (Alice Sebold)
25. Life of Pi (Yann Martel)
26. The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy (Douglas Adams) Want to
27. Wuthering Heights (Emily Bronte) Want to
28. The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe (C. S. Lewis)
29. East of Eden (John Steinbeck)
30. Tuesdays with Morrie (Mitch Albom)
31. Dune (Frank Herbert)
32. The Notebook (Nicholas Sparks) Want to
33. Atlas Shrugged (Ayn Rand)
34. 1984 (Orwell)
35. The Mists of Avalon (Marion Zimmer Bradley)
36. The Pillars of the Earth (Ken Follett)
37. The Power of One (Bryce Courtenay)
38. I Know This Much is True (Wally Lamb)
39. The Red Tent (Anita Diamant) Read
40. The Alchemist (Paulo Coelho)
41. The Clan of the Cave Bear (Jean M. Auel)
42. The Kite Runner (Khaled Hosseini)
43. Confessions of a Shopaholic (Sophie Kinsella)
44. The Five People You Meet In Heaven (Mitch Albom)
45. The Bible Started
46. Anna Karenina (Tolstoy)
47. The Count of Monte Cristo (Alexandre Dumas) LOVE THAT MOVIE. But I haven’t read it.
48. Angela’s Ashes (Frank McCourt)
49. The Grapes of Wrath (John Steinbeck)
50. She’s Come Undone (Wally Lamb)
51. The Poisonwood Bible (Barbara Kingsolver)
52. A Tale of Two Cities (Dickens)
53. Ender’s Game (Orson Scott Card)
54. Great Expectations (Dickens) Started
55. The Great Gatsby (Fitzgerald)
56. The Stone Angel (Margaret Laurence)
57. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (Rowling)
58. The Thorn Birds (Colleen McCullough)
59. The Handmaid’s Tale (Margaret Atwood) Want to
60. The Time Traveller’s Wife (Audrey Niffenegger)
61. Crime and Punishment (Fyodor Dostoyevsky)
62. The Fountainhead (Ayn Rand)
63. War and Peace (Tolsoy)
64. Interview With The Vampire (Anne Rice)
65. Fifth Business (Robertson Davis)
66. One Hundred Years Of Solitude (Gabriel Garcia Marquez)
67. The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants (Ann Brashares) Want to
68. Catch-22 (Joseph Heller)
69. Les Miserables (Hugo)
70. The Little Prince (Antoine de Saint-Exupery)
71. Bridget Jones’ Diary (Fielding)
72. Love in the Time of Cholera (Marquez) Want to
73. Shogun (James Clavell)
74. The English Patient (Michael Ondaatje) Want to
75. The Secret Garden (Frances Hodgson Burnett)
76. Tigana (Guy Gavriel Kay)
77. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn (Betty Smith)
78. The World According To Garp (John Irving) Want to
79. The Diviners (Margaret Laurence)
80. Charlotte’s Web (E.B. White) Read
81. Not Wanted On The Voyage (Timothy Findley)
82. Of Mice And Men (Steinbeck)
83. Rebecca (Daphne DuMaurier)
84. Wizard’s First Rule (Terry Goodkind)
85. Emma (Jane Austen) Want to
86. Watership Down (Richard Adams)
87. Brave New World (Aldous Huxley)
88. The Stone Diaries (Carol Shields)
89. Blindness (Jose Saramago)
90. Kane and Abel (Jeffrey Archer)
91. In The Skin Of A Lion (Ondaatje)
92. Lord of the Flies (Golding) Read
93. The Good Earth (Pearl S. Buck)
94. The Secret Life of Bees (Sue Monk Kidd)
95. The Bourne Identity (Robert Ludlum) I didn’t know this was a book!
96. The Outsiders (S.E. Hinton) Read

97. White Oleander (Janet Fitch)
98. A Woman of Substance (Barbara Taylor Bradford)
99. The Celestine Prophecy (James Redfield)
100. Ulysses (James Joyce)

Ok, so I don’t read much. And the truth is, 3 out of the 4 that I’ve completed on that list have been for school, so I was forced. Even if I did enjoy them. Chapter’s has a table of old classics that are….I think 3 for 25$ that I wanted to get some SO BAD last time I was there, but decided not to. The ones on the table were recovered paperbacks of lots of the more classics ones on this list. After seeing this, I think I will go back and get them!!! Maybe I’ll even make a point to read a few more off this list that are worth reading!

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I should be sleeping.

My mind has a habit of going into hyperdrive at the most inoportune times. I stayed up late last night watching a movie with my SIL and MIL (The Illusionist – if you haven’t seen it, DO IT!), and then I got up early this morning, and was mega tired around 8pm. But now it appears as though I have gotten my second wind. I made the mistake of staying up to watch the Colbert Report. I had to know what he had to say about Stephen Colbert Day in Oshawa, Ontario! Funny stuff people, funny stuff.

As a pre-warning, this blog entry is going to be all over the place, as is my mind. Going off of only 6 or 7 hours of sleep (which may be a lot to some people, but I require at least 8 in order to function at full levels) and having been awake for almost 17hrs right now. These last 17 hrs have been very busy too, on top of all of that. So yeah, I’m about fried, but I can’t sleep. Because writing THIS BLOG is on my brain. And I am reminded of my first ever entry! Hey Blog, Get Outta My Head!! I’M TRYING TO SLEEP!!

Insanity overwhelms me at these late hours of the night. When I’m trying REALLY hard to get to sleep at a good time, it seems that is when my brain kicks into full gear, and I begin to think about anything and everything I possibly can. Just name it, I’m thinking about it. I have a terrible memory, always have. I’ve always wondered if this makes me more suseptable (sp?!?!?) to something like Alzhiemer’s (I really should use spell check) when I’m older. Or if I’d get it at a younger age. Some people can remember such details about their childhood, or past events. Me? Barely. I’ll have moments of memory, but they usually go as quick as they’ve come. Then, on top of that, I have these times when my brain goes into hyper drive (as I’ve posted about before) that I get all dreamy and thinking about things. Like, if I’ll have Alzhiemer’s one day. And I’m all “Shut up brain, I’m trying to sleep!” And then I start to get scared that I will have some sort of mental disease, and I’ll be in and out of “normal” functioning, and have to live at a mental hospital. I think losing my mind is one of my biggest fears. Not being in control. Not being able to rationalize and think clearly. There’s a big reason why I could never dabble into drugs when I was presented the opportunities years ago. I was too afraid of not being in control of my mind. That prospect scared the heck outta me.

That paragraph probably didn’t even make any sense. I’m not even going to reread it like I normally do. I’m just going to satisfy my mind in doing what I needed to do here on the computer so that I can go upstairs and fall asleep.

Thanks to all the Mommies out there who commented on my last post. Turns out I’m not so cold-hearted after all! Either that, or I’m going to have to make a cold-hearted club, and I think there’d be a lot more members than in the crying mommies club!! And I guess medication doesn’t have a whole lot to do with it. I’m just not much of a happy cry-er. Is that even a word? I doubt it.

Well…I guess that will do. I have relatives here from out of town, so if I’m not around much, that’s why. My nephew, who is the same age as The Boy is keeping us pretty busy at our house, the two of them are inseperable!! It’s great though, so nice to see him playing with another kid his age!

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Attention Mommies!!

Here’s the deal!

I didn’t cry when my babies were born. I recently told some people this and I’m pretty sure they think I’m cold-hearted!!

So, I just wanted to take a survey – if you have given birth, did you cry when your baby was born??? Oh, and also wondering if you had an epidural. Reason being, because I’m wondering if I didn’t have the same chemicals and hormones and relief in order to cry because I had epidurals with both of my babies. So maybe because I hadn’t just gone through ___ hrs of pain, I wasn’t quite so emotional and grateful that it was finally over.

Or, maybe I’m just cold-hearted. :D

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My Name

This song makes me cry literally everytime I listen to it. It’s called “My Name” by George Canyon. After you’re done crying over this song, you can head over to his website and watch his video called “I want you to live”, and enjoy some more tears!!

It’s cold in here feels like everything’s upside down

I can feel you talking but I can barely make out the sound

I’ve been kicking around these parts for what feels like a year

I’m gunna change this world if I ever get out of here

She wants to dress me in pink, paints my bedroom blue

I just laugh to myself ’cause only I know the truth

This love is my only emotion

Haven’t learned any fear and pain

It’s kind of funny with all this commotion

Guess they’ve got me to blame

And they don’t even know my name

They don’t even know my name

Well I’ve never felt so ready, think it’s finally time

Cause that big ol’ world is waiting, and it’s mine all mine

Just then everything got real quiet, got real bright

And a man took my hand said “don’t worry” Mama’s gonna be alright

Then he opened the gates, and I followed him in

Said “you can wait right here, till it’s your turn again”

And His love is the one true emotion

Heaven knows no fear, no pain

I never got to set my wheels in motion

But they loved me just the same

And they didn’t even know my name

Didn’t even know my name

You loved me just the same

And you didn’t even know my name.

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